There are just those times in life when things seems to fall into place cosmically. You decide (or were nudged) to contact someone. Then you actually meet them. Then you meet people connected to them. Then you find out that you aren’t as crazy as you thought or you’re all crazy together.

Having one’s eyes reopened is not always such a pleasant experience. But that’s our choice I think because of how we perceive things. Being opened up forces us to see what is around us and sometimes more painfully, what is inside of us. We can choose to either to stay/go back to the safe place we came from or take that momentary step into uncomfortableness that can be a source of new happiness. Many of these things are tied into emotions. And if nothing else, I know that I’m a creature of emotions. It’s not always so easy to keep myself in check. I stay vigilant in holding the up and down swings from getting too far off with varying degrees of success. My whole life I’ve been told that my emotions are generally known or seen before I have admitted it to myself.

Note to self: avoid poker tournaments.

I am a believer that people can be an inspiration to others and this can be a great opportunity. It can lead to good or bad changes but no matter what, we have to accept the responsibility for those changes. No one makes us do anything we don’t want to do. One somewhat fake scenario has to do with someone holding a gun to your head and ‘making’ you choose to do something or make some decision. You might feel stress and pressure but still the decision is yours. You could just say, “Nope. Not doing it.” even if the consequences are everyone being shot.

I continue to feel inspired to make positive changes in my life. Diabetes and heart disease are an american staple. I know I should be taking better care of myself. Exercising and eating well are good places to start and I’ve made small changes in this direction. I can tell myself a hundred times that I need to be better. It just hasn’t happened been consistent. It’s my responsibility. It’s my choice. And it has to be for myself.

I hope in the coming weeks and months I can start to make those decisions that I think are for a betterment to my mind, body and spirit. I look forward to this challenge as I have an inspiration.

-It’s not an uphill battle, just an opportunity to get some exercise.-