i was asked why i haven’t said anything about the title of the blog. ok. now i have. it’s in the about section but i’m including in a post as well.

“i like to write when i can. i find it therapeutic. this blog started as a replacement journal for all the paper ones that i’ve lost or the electronic ones that just didn’t seem to work. as people have told me that they enjoy my writings i’ve tried to start writing more. so now not only is this blog for me to express myself but now this would be for everyone else to see what i’m up to and what’s going on in my slice of life.

as for the name. even i am not completely sure where it initially came from, but from what i remember the name is a mélange of thoughts. the santa that we know today is probably some fictional guy. i say probably just in case he’s real. i’d like to stay off the naughty list if i can. he might just smite me down with a shower of pointy candy canes. why not god smiting me down? just think about your last christmas. i’d wager that most people were thinking about what they were going to get or not going to get instead of remembering it’s christ-mas. you know that jesus fellow. not that one, the one that is supposed to be god’s son and died and all that stuff. i saw a great bumper sticker that said, “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.” – Mahatma Gandhi

yes i’m picking on one particular group. deal.

we, the people, place much stock in things that aren’t real. we like to avoid reality at almost any cost. look at the number of reality shows. i have enough reality in my own life thank you very much. we also like to ignore what is going on around us and hide our heads in the sand hoping that problems will fix themselves and just go away. as stupid as this may sound, when i start thinking about how ‘difficult’ my life is, i try to remember that i can walk down the street without (much) worry that there will be a falling building from a rocket launcher attack or that someone might blow themselves up or that i won’t have a place to sleep at night or that i won’t have anything to eat. kinda puts things in perspective. america may suck in a lot of ways and i have ranted many times to friends but we also have a lot of really nice things too. ain’t no one perfect.

the fallen angel is another interesting idea. cast out of heaven for disobedience. disobedience from supposed free will. it’s a catch. if they have free will then they exercised it and were thrown out. basically you can think what you want but if you don’t do what you’re told you can just go to hell, literally. if they don’t have free will then god made angels whose purpose was to rebel and set up this whole game in motion. having attempted a walk down the path of christ, i picked up some things i found intriguing. heaven is not necessarily a resort to hook up again with friends and family. your job is to worship god and maybe learning. but for a moment i had another thought. what if… this heaven and hell stuff is flipped. who’s to say that the bad guy didn’t pull some fast ones and convinced people he was the good guy and to write his book. he’s supposed to be a deceiver in his own book right? what better way then to hide the truth that way and he gets the worshipers. maybe the fallen angel is a good guy that just bucked the bad system and is trying to actually help. well, we won’t know until the end if there is any answer at all. as well if it’s really free will, then let it be free, no strings attached, no bullying.

therefore, it’s “Santa’s Fallen Angel” a combination of trying to accept and live in reality as well as remembering to question doctrine.

i thank each and everyone that takes time to read what i’ve written. may you smile and laugh and feel renewed.”